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On Me
04:28
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Oh no, I lost control so I let my mouth go and curse your name
Oh no, to you my soul goes but my flesh and bone don't and I stay the same
Oh no, I feel alone so I build a home on my laurels' sand
For a time there it's almost nice and me and my vices sleep hand in hand
I know it all comes down on me
Oh no, I let my hold go and I let my roots grow back where I was
And now my dust settled down I might as well dive down in some deeper mud
Oh no, no no no no I hit a new low even for me
And it's down low, down in the gallows
Give me my release
I know it all comes down on me
Can't shake self-hate
Half truths, falsehoods
Late nights hoping for you and wishing that you wouldn't come
Oh no, I want to give out so I hang my head down on bended knee
But this hope's deft and it's all I got left and it don't got much heft
But it's holding me
I know it all comes down on me
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2. |
Right Now
04:52
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Preface me in detail time before my birth
All my value hinged on the worth before my worth
Read me in the light of every grace you ever sought
Throw your heart behind me though a hero I am not
Oh, this is glorious story
Oh, this is for me
It's writing right now, so what you want to write right now?
Hate my lack of candor but love me just the same
Cheer my every progress and despise my every shame
I am all at once yours and all others who claim
You are enamored with the author for the sake of my own name
Oh, this is glorious story
Oh, this is for me
It's writing right now, so what you want to write right now?
And I will wake with dawn and grieve the woebegone
And though weary from my plot enthralled I forget you not
Oh, this is glorious story
And I knew but now I find I'm knowing
More true every line with thine
And for you, for us all
It's writing right now, so what you want to write right now?
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3. |
Down In The Way Down
04:33
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Well it's fine, fine, fine this line we walk here
From side to side, oh, I can't help but sway
Now I can hide, hide, hide devoured in the masses
But I want to thrive, thrive, thrive some kind of way
So I'll hold this hope
Down in the way down
I know the world is gonna bend now
Alright I'm throwing up my hands now
And I know the world is gonna bend
Oh, oh, oh, I don't know if you love me
And I don't know, know, know if I love you back
Tonight you glow though oh no you got so much spirit
And I need you so, so, so in the worst kind of way
So I'll hold this hope
Down in the way down
I know the world is gonna bend now
Alright I'm throwing up my hands now
And I know the world is gonna bend
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4. |
Jerusalem
05:10
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Monday morning on her walk to school
Today she walks a little slower
Oh they tell her she has grown so fast
But is this really getting older
She is weeping in her black mascara
Here the stones they use to shame her
Time is ticking with the pulse she's holding
In the end she bids them name her
And I think of old Jerusalem
All holy war and terror
And I think of old Jerusalem
All storied crafted and beloved
What a world that we inherited
What a truth we turn disaster
We are all of us a masterpiece
But we are all of us a master
Like a sculptor we are chipping always
At our image and our neighbors
Never truly being satisfied
And slowly cracking from the labors
And I think of old Jerusalem
All holy war and terror
And I think of old Jerusalem
All storied crafted and beloved
Come on and save Jerusalem
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5. |
Jericho
04:56
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In Jericho there were walls of legend
And those walls came-a-tumbling down
In the light hours with nothing but our voices
They were rubble on the cool of the ground
Come on, shout to me
Go on break it down
Now the great wall they say ain't falling
Though it's been there for years on years
There were many that came there hoping
They could tear it down or claim it for theirs
Praying that ain't me
Go on break it down
Now there was a strong wall in the city of Berlin
Holding families, friends, and lovers apart
And the people they got tired of the breaking
So they tore it down to save their hearts
Come on save me
Go on break it down
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6. |
Fault Of Men
06:38
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Well I couldn't ever drink, what would my poor Mother think
Seeing me end up like him, living into curse of kin
Now my sons still need to know, but it won't be me who shows
Watched him take my youth, my home with him
Leave their innocence for them
But heroes come to bed
Even evil has to rest
And children need their sleep
I guess you're all the same as me
The drink is all I am, I don't know how it began
It's before my memory, I guess I learned on daddy's knee
Now my mom I think would guess, she could see why Maya left
Bless her heart she loves me so, how I feel I don't really know
But heroes live by food
And evil dineth too
And children need to eat
I guess you're all the same as me
My brother is kind and bold, but the curse just got a hold
I can see his heart is gone, I can't stand that people know him wrong
My old kid brother is free, in the way I used to be
He ain't got much dad in him, on his face or down within
But heroes come to thirst
And evil even worse
And children need to drink
I guess you're all the same
And heroes come to die
And evil finds a light
And children see the end
I guess it's just the fault of men
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7. |
Song For The Man
01:19
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Song for the man who floated round with more mirth than one can hold
House after house what joy he found the man with the weightless soul
But oh he hated Sundays as he sat in the park alone
Because everybody wants their family time and he rarely laughed alone
Oh, levity
Song for the man who planted down and always his plight retold
From all who would pass what honor he found the man with the iron soul
But oh he hated Sundays when the claps on the back did part
Everybody with their families and he with his open scars
Oh, gravity
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8. |
Back Down
03:32
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I don't need this I'll be fine, who needs water I got wine
Who are you to break my will, from this famine, slop and swill
Why are you cracking my defense, you call grace my recompense
This new flesh cannot be what I need, I couldn't feel no but I couldn't bleed
Back down you gotta hold of me
Slow down you gotta hold of me
Somehow you gotta hold of me
Don't stop now you gotta hold of me
This you call your promised land, from the fire back to the pan
Now my soul you know you keep, but I'm taking on water and you're asleep
Back down you gotta hold of me
Slow down you gotta hold of me
Somehow you gotta hold of me
Don't stop now you gotta hold of me
Like a child I understood, all I did was for my good
I enraptured came to be, how can captor set me free
Now that I am I will not move, a still most unlike mine by the healing pool
With new skin and joy run rampant in the fray
We're onward, upward, oh my
Back down you gotta hold of me
Slow down you gotta hold of me
Somehow you gotta hold of me
Don't stop now you gotta hold of me
Somehow you gotta hold of me
Still now you gotta hold of me
Hold now you gotta hold of me
Don't stop now you gotta hold of me
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9. |
As The Dove Calls
05:34
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The night came early my mind stayed late
The days move before me I float in their wake
It's thick but it's simple love forfeits control
It moves not a muscle but it always goes
And lo this heart is beating so I'm still here and bleeding
Still I'd want you to show me that I'm no slave
I'd want you to hold me and make me brave
I'd want you to take me and take me all
I'd want you to wake me as the dove calls
Oh sign me on
I'm doubting tradition, that cardinal sin
Change leadeth to poison amen
Still I feel the grinding, stomach soul and spine
Deep within me, far beyond the lies
And lo these arms are bending beneath the weight impending
Still I'd want you to show me that I'm no slave
I'd want you to hold me and make me brave
I'd want you to take me and take me all
I'd want you to wake me as the dove calls
Oh sign me on
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Aquariums
05:16
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Poppyseeds adrift aloft, wishes made and wishes lost
Though a child I recall a void I tried to hide
We in our aquariums, just so far to swim to run
Trying to swallow all that comes and we're sputtering
Hold on me
I want you to hold on me
Thinking on the maple tree, stretching roots to nourish me
And where I rest ain't always green but I'm planted
We are only aquiphors dry of life and offering hurt
Or yielding water through the dirt, healing, quenching us
Hold on me
I want you to hold on me
All the world is aqueous, brokenness is copious
There is love superfluous, sweet diffusion
Sing away your voice in song, dance whenever joy is strong
Because when at times the feeling's gone hope remembers
Hope remembers you
Hold on me
I want you to hold on me
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11. |
Can't Hold You
04:23
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One with the sunrise, your weight on my eyes
I've been up all night, sweetly enthralled
My heart is pounding, intrigue abounding
Your life resounding with all that I am
And I held you in my hands
And I heard of all your plans
And they weren't quite set in stone
So I thought to weave my own
I could take your shame now, draw all the pain out
And we'll shake the lights down, with all of this love
Paint me the savior, I'm strong to save you
And I think I could make you, feel whole like you should
And I held you in the night
And I took on all your plight
And I planned to hold it strong
But I'm barely holding on
And I held you in my arms
And I swallowed all your scars
But they came back to your skin
I just couldn't hold them in
I can't hold you like I want to
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12. |
Waltzes On The Walls
04:28
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Share a smile, have a laugh, tell a couple stories
I ain't got no problems going on
See I've been vying for peace of mind, to you all it's come here
I'm dancing like the dog days are gone
The dimming lights, a hug goodnight, it's always worse in daytime
When what I feel is right before my eyes
If ain't here, it isn't clear, that's not the better option
Ain't it true that everybody dies
You thought I'd be sleeping through the night
Lost in clouds or satelittes
You thought I'd be sleeping all along
Set to lullabies or some other song
But you got me figured wrong, I ain't been sleep too long
And it's 5 am
The sound is clear and they're all here, the skeletons I locked up
Are dancing pretty waltzes on the walls
The things I lost, the things I've done, the things I've had done to me
Are stepping perfect time as twilight falls
Who am I to stop the tide, I ain't nothing special
I ain't worth a dime or nickel split
So I decide my suicide, who I'd say goodbye to and what's the way to best go through with it
You thought I'd be sleeping through the night
Lost in clouds or satelittes
You thought I'd be sleeping all along
Set to lullabies or some other song
But you got me figured wrong, I ain't been sleep too long
And it's 5 am
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